My journey through life with HIV and HEP-C .

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Seriously "I am hiv pos"

I have been going out more often lately than I have in the last 4 years. Seeing old friends, meeting new ones, a wonderful time in my life I would love to bottle and pass on to anyone who isn't. I, of course, live by the thought you create your own destiny. What you want you put out into the univesrse. Many times it's like spitting in the wind, but all good things can and will happen eventually. Anyway I wasn't going into this, but let me finish. You can wake up everyday and tell yourself "my life sucks", I will never get that job I want, etc . Try instead to rid your mind of negative thoughts and feelings. You can ruin your day or choose to fall in love with your day. ok back to what I wanted to talk about .

Going out to my neighborhood bar a few weeks back i was asked out  by 2 incredible guys both in their 30's both with a negative status. I chatted and flirted with them of course( I'm living my life here). I told them both of my status, as I usually do right off. Niether one minded. One guy left and gave me his # and the other started heavy flirting, you know the kind where you end up with tounges roaming and other parts arising. He asked if I would go home with him. He was so cute and such a nice guy. I said yes. Long  x-rated story short he did not want to use a condom ...this can't be happening I said, out loud probably . So needless to say no sex was had and I haven't heard from him since.
I realize the issues with condoms.............. "I hate them "; "they don't feel as good " ... Well how about I tell you how horrible the outcome will be if we don't. The pills, the Dr's, never feeling good enough to function daily, if that isn't enough already .

All I can say and do is use condoms or abstinence. I will not sleep with you with out protection, thats how my whole mess started! It can happen to any of you that don't take precautions. I want to live and I want you to as well . Happy hunting. Be safe everyone

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