Smart truth ..

http://www.richardferri.com/ here is a sharp talking actual Doctor telling it like it is. Not only is he a DR but he also has HIV, AIDS and is 53 years young. I read and read his blog. Smiled, laughed, cried, got pissed off , and I am sure he doesn't give a shit what I think. I like him and his stories about not just having and dealing with this damned disease, but being a Doctor and the hell he goes through to provide for them. I am sure he wouldn't want me to say anything nice about him or actually wouldn't give a crap what I had to say. But that is it.......he says things I don't, he feels the same emotions I do but isn't too polite to talk about them. Maybe we are different in that way, but we are both fighting the fight and I respect him for his candor .

So Richard ,thank you for your fucking eye opening words and the hard work you do for all of us, not just your patients.





Blessed Be

Its that time again...

Before I was going through the HIV and Hep-C treatments I had what they call a fistula. If you click on the word it will give you a brief explanation of this disease. I have had 2 surgeries on it so far and now its time again. I am in constant pain from this and need to take medication for it.

The Dr's suggest I go and have it checked every year to make sure it hasn't progressed to anything more , such as rectal cancer. The procedure itself is not so bad because I am usually asleep during it (TG). I am hoping everything goes well and there are no more problems .

Well I must keep the faith as should us all .



Blessed be!

Some information I stumbled on.

I came across this article and thought it was very interesting and easy to understand.
Basically it just explains how HIV works in the body. Of course there is so much more to it than this but I thought the way it was explained was very easy to understand.
http://www.aidsmeds.com/articles/hiv_life_cycle_5014.shtml

Although this is is just the beginning stages of the disease it also explains how rapidly it can multiply.

http://www.aidsmeds.com/ is a wonderful place to learn more about HIV and as I always say "Knowledge is power".

Wrap it up !

Blessed be !

A chance to do more..

I am a big crusader in getting tested early and knowing your status. I also know this is a very scary thing for anyone debating the issue. Seriously, it is the most important thing you can do for yourself and anyone you love. I hear horror stories all the time about one partner who didn't know and gave it to the other. Nobody asks for this hell, at least I hope not . So be the one to do the right thing and get tested. There is no way to know if you have HIV or HEP-C and if you do feel symptoms it's been multiplying in your blood for quite sometime. It can still be handled , but you (quite possibly) have also passed it on to others or your partner. I was lucky my ex didn't get it, but it doesn't mean I didn't spend sleepless nights wondering and worrying if I had given it to him .

PLEASE GET TESTED IF NOT FOR YOU DO IT FOR THE WORLD!!!!

Its easy , its fast, its the right thing to do .

Blessed be !!

Some information some may need

You will notice I just posted a link to National housing trust . I know the power of living safely in a place you can call home is getting harder for all of us, not just those affected with the diseases, but those families and children who have lost everything or close to it already. I can say with certainty that you have to make your voices heard , by that I mean you take the steps to secure yourself with the help you need .

RED TAPE, RED TAPE....this is why I see a 20 year old girl with dirty clothes a blank stare as if she had been beaten down by life....holding her small fragile dog in one hand and a cup for change in another. As I put my measly dollar in her cup and smile, I think to myself "you're in the same boat." I am fortunate to have good friends and an exceptional landlord who care, but I still believe I will have to fight to be in a safe place not having to worry if I will have to go to a shelter for food , a warm bed and medicine to keep me alive.



There are many . many people who need help right here in our own country . The sick , the poor the elderly. Why in this country full of many riches . Why is this a problem here ? I walked away from the young woman think and planning how could I help , why don't I help ? She is me and I am her we are in this life together what is wrong with helping others . I got on my train and was sped away to my Dr's office , and all I have done for her is this blog ..



My health is getting better I feel more energy . I am still in pain ,still nausea , still fevers here and there. But I wake up everyday and breath and can participate in life.



Blessed be !